A.M.

Oh ghost! I can't say anything right now. I just want to lay in my bed, listen to sad songs and cry all night long :""""(

I just want to say thank you for my bf for always be there even if I can't do my best to make him happy. I just make him feeling bad :( unhappy :( just because of me :(


I'm sorry, I really am. I don't mean to make you feeling suck :(


I just want us to tell everything literally everything. I don't care if the story that you share is a silly or unimportant thing, as long as you share it with me, I will feel it is important. I just love to listen your "enthusiastic" voice. I love your voice, love your expression whatever your mood in, love your personality, love all everything that you have. I hope you do the same as me.



Look! Even when my mood really bad I could tell everything about him happily. I don't know why, it really changes my mood whenever I tell about him. I just want him to know I'm so grateful to have such a boyfriend like him. I don't want him to change :(

Random thoughts.

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO TELL WHAT IS ON MY MIND

I CAN'T WRITE IT DOWN WHILE MY MIND IS FULL OF RANDOM THOUGHTS.

I WILL NOT BE THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE, I ALWAYS WANT MORE, MORE AND MORE. 

I ALWAYS BLAME MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING WENT WRONG AND NEVER LEARN FROM IT.

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO WRITE IN ENGLISH WHILE YOU SHOULD DO YOUR SKRIPSI SOON.

GOD, PLEASE GIVE ME THE MIRACLE TO PASS THIS SH*T AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

I JUST WANT TO MAKE MY PARENTS HAPPY TO SEE ME WEAR MY OWN TOGA.

GIVE ME MOTIVATION TO PASS THIS. PLEASE.