Him

I will tell you about him in short: he's like no body else. Yeah for now, I think he's the best gift that I ever have! I won't ask God for more because I have everything. I know, it sounds cheesy but no one ever treat me like he does.

I never found someone that would fall for me that hard. I know he just wants to make me happy and I am. I really am. Being with him, I can forget my problems, my past and anything bad. I'm just being happy whenever I'm with him, literally. You do it right babe!

I'm sorry that I ever take him for granted, I'm so sorry, whenever I think about it I always blame myself, always. I know sorry means nothing when someone's heart is broken but if I have a word beyond sorry, I would give it to him with all of my regret feeling. Can he see that? Can he see how my heart being hurt when he's hurt? I hope he knows it :(


I love him. I love him with all of his flaws, I love the way he tells (so-not-funny) things, I love the way he gives his jacket whenever he drives me home, I love to see he cares about me and takes me first before him (I know he shouldn't do that!), I love the way he comes to my home and takes me to hospital even when he had lack of sleep (you know I always worry about your sleeping time), I love the way he worries about my ill, I love the way he reminds me about my study (I'm sorry I can't make you proud), I love the way he introduces me in front of his friends, I really love the way when he takes me & drives me home even when he has to face the heavy rain (but I really hate you not to listen to me when I said you should stay!). I love everything inside him! I never think to change him even a little, I love just the way he is. I love his imperfection. Those makes him perfect in my eyes. I also never fall for someone that hard. I never do that, believe me.


Now, I just want him to know, being with him is all that I need and I'm so grateful for that.

A.M.

Oh ghost! I can't say anything right now. I just want to lay in my bed, listen to sad songs and cry all night long :""""(

I just want to say thank you for my bf for always be there even if I can't do my best to make him happy. I just make him feeling bad :( unhappy :( just because of me :(


I'm sorry, I really am. I don't mean to make you feeling suck :(


I just want us to tell everything literally everything. I don't care if the story that you share is a silly or unimportant thing, as long as you share it with me, I will feel it is important. I just love to listen your "enthusiastic" voice. I love your voice, love your expression whatever your mood in, love your personality, love all everything that you have. I hope you do the same as me.



Look! Even when my mood really bad I could tell everything about him happily. I don't know why, it really changes my mood whenever I tell about him. I just want him to know I'm so grateful to have such a boyfriend like him. I don't want him to change :(

Random thoughts.

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO TELL WHAT IS ON MY MIND

I CAN'T WRITE IT DOWN WHILE MY MIND IS FULL OF RANDOM THOUGHTS.

I WILL NOT BE THANKFUL FOR EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE, I ALWAYS WANT MORE, MORE AND MORE. 

I ALWAYS BLAME MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING WENT WRONG AND NEVER LEARN FROM IT.

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO WRITE IN ENGLISH WHILE YOU SHOULD DO YOUR SKRIPSI SOON.

GOD, PLEASE GIVE ME THE MIRACLE TO PASS THIS SH*T AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

I JUST WANT TO MAKE MY PARENTS HAPPY TO SEE ME WEAR MY OWN TOGA.

GIVE ME MOTIVATION TO PASS THIS. PLEASE.

Dufan!

On Monday, 28th March 2016.

I told him that I wanted to go to Dufan but he resisted me first. He really cares about my healthy yet what I really concern only about how to have fun lol with my so-hard-to-deny look, he agreed to accompany me to Dufan (yeah I knew he would go too). I didn't expect he would contact my mother to ask her permission and yeah my mother absolutely allowed me to go despite with any conditions.

In the morning, he parked his motorcycle at my house because he thought it would be easy if we went to Dufan by transjakarta (I know he was wrong totally wrong). yeah you know I was right, he felt so tired because he was standing during the road. Then, we went in directly after we arrived but we felt so tired like *wtf we're adult now we are so easy to feel tired* lol we spent approximately one or two hours just for sitting and talking about silly things. Tbh, I like when we shared about everything literally everything. I can tell anything with him. Then, we had our lunch together.

After having lunch, we decided to pray before we take some rides. I actually forgot what the first ride we took but I thought it was istana boneka? because yeah you know I can't take extreme or challenging ride because of my sickness. I did a loooooooot of fun!!! I really enjoy the vibe of being with him. I feel comfortable every time with him. I don't know why.

We recorded our activity and took some photos there. I was happy at that time, really. Oh gosh, I wish we could turn back time and do some fun again and again!!!!!

I will upload some photos when we were there. I hope we can have some adventure again and makes some memories, yeay.

(When we were confused what the first ride we took, we took a selfie instead)

(we met his friend and captured some photos in front of histeria ride)

(We didn't know what we should do so took a selfie was the best solution)

(we're at Istana boneka aaaaand don't forget to take a selfie!)

(Having lunch and talking about everything is the best part!!)

My life has been fulfilled by him

I don't know which part I should tell, I don't know how to start this story but let me tell this story briefly.

I knew him on the platform (which-I-could-not-tell-you-what-it-is), it was really surprising that he could be meant so much to me.

I don't know if it could bring us to this part, I don't know if he can love me like nobody can do, I don't know if he can be so important to me. He can bring my happiness without make me feel insecure about myself, he can be just the way he is, he can understand about my weirdness, he can be that patient to face my anger. I don't know if he feels the same way like I do but I know I never regret to love him, never regret to give my best to him and I think he will do the same (as I wish).

love u, W.

Proposal Skripsi

Today, I was just random as usual and I thought I could tell anything in my life on this platform because no one won't see it, right? even if someone sees my blog, who cares? lol
anyway, I went to campus today. yeaaah as you know, it's my day off but I had to go because I had to attend my proposal skripsi workshop (it's all about my future yoooooow) *swag* *swag* it was sooooooo boring first but when Mr. Alek took over, my sleepiness went away. I don't know why but he is so fucking funny guuuuys you should know him!
you know before we (7th semester students) must attend the workshop, we should submit two tittles thesis and their previous study in one week! wtf. I felt like I couldn't make it. I didn't know what I should write but I remembered if Kak Ajeng gave me her proposal skripsi about "the effectiveness of tongue-twister through their pronunciation". well, I thought, it was a good idea if I put my tittle about it. but I can't do that, I change the tittle the effectiveness into the correlation and I think it was okay tho. I don't know if I should be sad or happy because my proposal skripsi's tittle was accepted!!!!!! OMG. MY BRIGHT-OR-NOT-FUTURE THOUGHTS HIT ME HARDER GUYS. HELP MEEE. I know I can do this on time! in addition, my pembimbing proposal skripsi is so friendly. she is ms. Evi. oh really I thank to God for giving me such a nice pembimbing proposal skripsi. All praises be to Allah. I want to tell a lot about this but my mood changes fast. If I get my mood back I'll continue this. bye bye!

You jerk.

Okay I know you're much waaaaaaay smarter than me. I can't speak English well, I don't have much vocabulary in my head, I got anxious every time in my presentation, I can't teach well, I can't do anything like you, yeah. I know you're so smart even Einsten will be shy to talk to you. HAH. Just go fuck yourself, asshole! If you don't want to see me as an idiot, just teach me how to be smart! just teach me like you want to see me not as an idiot. Do not underestimate me just because you're smarter than me. You know karma does exist, right? what if I pray to God to revoke your intelligence then change it into dumb. Yeah I wish I was that evil. I just need to get rid of my negativity like you. fuck off.